Sunday, May 27, 2012

What a feeling!

Friday morning I wrote my first final for this course...One semester down...5 more months to go.

Right now, however, I am on a break (Cue "Friends" theme song here).

2 quizzes 93% average
one final exam 76%
one essay yet to be marked

I have guesstimated that, if I were to get at least an 80% on the essay, I will have a final mark for the first semester in the low 80s. Yay!!!!

I'm not going to blow smoke at anyone, including myself...
It was difficult. There were moments of frustration, tears, defeat, lonlieness and resentment.

Yes, I felt resentful. I am not proud. I had moments where it felt like I never saw my family, likemy pastor just didn't understand how hard it was for me to balance my schedule with this giant snag that had been put into my resurrecting schedule.I cried tears in my pillow, mumbling things like he just didn't get it and there was no way I could do all I was being asked to do.

The truth of the matter is he understood how busy I was, my schedule, all that was on my plate, that BigDaddy was gone a lot... He knew and he knew what I was/am capable of and wanted to prove it to me. He strengthened me through pray, let me have days off when I needed to pout (much to my dismay) and when it came time for me to study for and write the exam, he and his wife, prayed, text words of great encouragement...all which were great gifts...

BUT

the greatest gift of all

I know I am capable of more than I thought I was.

Including passing this course...I did it! And I will successfully complete the second one as well...

My family understood...understands

and they understand that there will be another season of it.

Next go around I know what to expect, how to plan...

The next little while, I am enjoying my family...

And I am taking time to smell the roses...which means a few picnics, museum trips, strolls with the family...

Oh, and maybe get back on track here...

1 comment:

  1. Missed you here but am very happy for you with your accomplishments. You're amazing.

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