And so

It's back to me.  I feel like my mom and I are playing tennis lobbing the ball back and forth into each other's court.  My uncle, who is dying from brain cancer and has no family of his immediate own - outside of us - was in the hospital here.  He was transferred for a couple of weeks to the city my mom lives 1 hour and 1/2 away from me.  Now he has been transferred back, which is a good sign; he has stabalized.  Doctors here are trying to find a care home for him.

I offered my home but, apparently, I would need to quit my job as he needs constant supervision given the nature of his disease, and, the doctor doesn't think that it would be a great environment for my children. Thinking upon it after, I tend to agree.  He has horrible seizures and he gets very confused, sometimes angry, and he is very, very weepy given the location of the tumor on his brain.

I am now resigned to only caring for him by baking him goodies, visiting him, finding ways to make him smile and bringing him the odd cup of coffee.  All these things, while normally contraband for someone with similar underlying health issues (ulcers from the medication), are welcomed by his doctor in an attempt to make his "last days" comfortable and loving.

He is a strong man.  A few years ago he decided to take on a train while he was in a tractor - somehow he did not hear it coming.  Miraculously, my uncle won (after a long fight).  Last year, almost exactly, he fought and, thought he had, beat lung cancer.  He had the lower lobe of his right lung removed; the doctor's think the cancer had all ready spread to his brain but was, at that time, undetected due to not enough cancer cells in the brain to "show".

As many of you out there know, it is hard watching someone you love die, especially slowly but I count it an honor and privelege to make his last days, weeks, months (?) as happy as I possibly can

When you live in Canada

your children get excited by the strangest things. When you live in Canada, especially in the northernish part of Canada, your children have winter for approximately 9 months of the year.

And so, things like this really seem to excite them...or maybe its just my kids but, new long underwear seems to fill them with goofy, happy, warm, smiley feelings.

Especially...

When they are...
Hockey long johns and for your whole life you have wished with all your heart that Matt Sundin would come to your birthday party just once! I mean your birthday is

in da summah time after all and it's not like he's pwayin hotey in da summahtime anyway!

Yeah, it's kinda like that in Canada, in my house anyway...

Went to a shower,

a baby shower. I think it is so great when women get to get together and just be with each other, in an environment that they can just be. You know what I mean; I know you do. The chance to talk to your sisters freely, openly, emotionally - if need be.

We played a very funny game at the shower. Two ladies had a paper plate on the top of their heads and they drew a picture of a "baby". I say "baby" because, well, you'll see why shortly...

Are those not the funniest things you ever saw? We had plenty of laughs.

Laughter is good among friends.

Don't judge us but...

We ate the baby {ahem} good thing it was a baby cake...

How cute of a job did my friend do on that baby? Would you think less of me if I told you the "baby" was delicious?

A side note about the shower: the next morning Bug told me he was so very excited to see Miss Kareen's baby at church. I had to tell him that Miss Kareen's baby isn't due until just before Christmas...

"Um? Mama? How did you guys shower him then?"

It's Official

I have become my husband's secretary.  You think I jest? Alas, that I were laden with mischief.  BigB is at the most northern tip of our province right now on a business trip and was made aware  of a meeting he is to be at for our church this evening.  Um, he won't make it.

I was asked, nicely mind you, if I would go to the meeting on BigB's  behalf to take notes so I can enlighten him when he gets home - probably tomorrow. Now that I know the when and the where and that it is perfectly all right that I bring the kids, and put them in the nursery room, I have no problem what-so-ever.

I will be lost during this meeting but, that's not the point.  All I need to do is make good notes. {Grin}

I count it an honor and a priveledge to be able to do this for my husband and that the pastors suggested I be there during a meeting that does not pertain to me.

Gee, I hope I take good notes!

I'm Gonna Lose It!!!!

And not in the way I have been going through waves of grief again in the past few days (and today was a hard one) but in the "I-have-weight-to-lose-and-I-AM-going-to-lose-it" kind of way.

I am joining up with some ladies that I have met through the internet, blogging world as they are going through a Healthy eating/fitness through the holidays.  Check their blogs here and here for nutrition tips and for fitness tips beginning Nov 3. We will be banding together with other ladies for support and ideas through our blogs so feel free to join us!  I have also been talking with my new friend, New England Girl, and we have agreed to be accountable to each other so far it hasn't been too serious but, nice to know she is there for some support and maybe a virtual slap upside the head once in awhile...{GRIN}

So, I don't think I am going to focus on weight loss so much as getting healthier and, perhaps things will get lost a whole lot easier.

Why is it so easy to lose things we don't want to lose, like our debit cards (which I have seriously lost because I hate always carrying a purse so I threw it in a pants pocket and am not sure where it wound up) or our tempers but losing those things we want to lose... is the most. difficult. thing. in. the. world!

Well, that and putting our lives in the hands of another and trusting Him completely...over ALL things!

"I'm Probably Lying"

Is what his t-shirt said and so, I am wondering, do I believe him? Or is he lying?

Gross, gross, gross but still cool enough to photograph

We caught a picture of Fredrico catching his dinner and eyeing up dessert.