I lost you.
I know where you are but I still haven't found you.
I think of you every day.
I miss you - every day.
My heart feels unsettled, missing, partial... it hurts.
I'm sorry I let you down. I thought I was doing what was right. I was doing the best I could at the time. I thought I taught you faith - I failed you. I failed you. I failed you. I get that. I am sorry. That is the only thing I can do - apologize. I pray you forgive me for all the wrong doings you feel were done to you. I don't know what all they were but I am sorry that I have failed you in all the areas you needed me.
I thought I showed you love but I failed you. I am sorry if I ever made you feel you were not good enough. I wouldn't want you to be any other way than you. I am sorry if I ever made you feel you were a disappointment. I could never be disappointed in you. You are the beat in my heart and the breath in my lungs.
I will never forget the feeling of my heart crumbling to bits as I realized you were gone, that you resented us so much that you felt your only option was to run.
I am so, so, so very sorry