365 days ago

I lost you.

I know where you are but I still haven't found you.

I think of you every day.

I miss you - every day.

My heart feels unsettled, missing, partial... it hurts.

I'm sorry I let you down. I thought I was doing what was right.  I was doing the best I could at the time.  I failed you. I failed you.  I failed you.  I get that. I am sorry.  That is the only thing I can do - apologize.  I hope you forgive me for all the wrong doings you feel were done to you. I don't know what all they were but I am sorry that I have failed you in all the areas you needed me.

I thought I showed you love but I failed you. I am sorry if I ever made you feel you were not good enough. I wouldn't want you to be any other way than you. I am sorry if I ever made you feel you were a disappointment.  I could never be disappointed in you.  You are the beat in my heart and the breath in my lungs.

I will never forget the feeling of my heart crumbling to bits as I realized you were gone, that you resented me so much that you felt your only option was to run.

Beautiful daughter...

I am so, so, so very sorry

I

FAILED

YOU...

I'm sorry you have been robbed of your joy...

I LOVE YOU!!!

I MISS YOU!!!!