I am feeling overwhelmed - have been for a while now but this week especially. You see my husband is out of town every second week working and every other week he is in school during the evenings. He is never here, other than weekends; it has been this way since 2 days before Rush ran away from home, and I am exhausted.
My house is a disaster. Until tonight my kitchen counters were horrendous, and let's not even talk about what the kitchen floor looked like. I have a laundry pile that is growing more and more vicious as each day goes by, and all I have been able to do is was, dry and throw in the laundry hamper to await folding. I have a babysitting manual that needs to be done, proofread and sent for leadership approval and ready to be printed and put in book form for October 17 which I was supposed to be teaching at but...I got a call from the hospital the other day and accepted a shift in ICU (ward clerk) for that day - totally not realizing it was the 17th this soon.
I started moving our bedroom things from the room we are in now to Rush's old room and my room looks...well, it is indescribable.
I am overwhelmed. I am working, trying to do the parenting of two parents, cleaning, cooking and "renovating" and arguing with Rush (witout trying to argue with her) to find out why she ran away from home. She won't tell me and now, won't respond to my emails after I told her that she never gave us any reasons for her running away like she said she did and that all she did was run away from everything under the cover of night.
She won't talk to me and we are going to see her this weekend for Thanksgiving. It's been six weeks and I guess I just don't know anymore. I just feel incredibly overwhelmed.
I know it will get better and I know it is just the day and I know it is the end of a week where BigB has been gone and my list just goes on and on.
I am done rambling and am contemplating not posting this because it is so whiny and pitiful and full of me, me, me, I, I, I.
Please accept my apologizies for this pathetic post and know that once I am done this manual and the room is back to being able to walk in it I will feel much better.
Off to put some worsip music on and think about someone other than myself...