Thursday, August 20, 2009

One Hour

Until I pick up DD4 and DS3. It has been a long day at work; I have no desire to be here but what would I do? Sit in DD2's vacant room and look at what was?

I feel so unworthy to be a mom; I feel like such a failure. I know I am not but, I also know that I am not perfect. I pray for reconciliation. I pray that God will bring my girl home to me with the joy she once had.

I pray that in the meantime, He reveals to me what mistakes I did make and helps me to correct them so I don't make them with DD4 and DS3.

I think we will be making a trip to Pet Land tonight; maybe the kids can pet some adorable kittens and smile. We need to buy more crickets for our newly inherited lizards.


  1. I will pray that your daughter comes home safe. We mothers are a sorry lot aren't we. The constant worry....the never feeling good enough. (sigh)

  2. Thank you for your kind words on my blog.

    I am so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time. I am thankful that your daughter is with someone that you know to be safe.

    Sometimes God allows things in our lives so that we can grow in our trust in Him. I hope that your family and your daughter draw close to Him during this trial and that your daughter comes home soon :)

    Psalm 121

    1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
    where does my help come from?
    2 My help comes from the LORD,
    the Maker of heaven and earth.

    How reassuring that passage is for me. I hope it helps you too.

    With love and hope,

  3. He seems to work in mysterious ways. My thoughts are with you as your daughter gets through this difficult time. She is lucky who has a mother who loves her enough to let her go and discover who she is on her own. Remember that when she comes home she will be stronger and love you even more.

  4. I had no idea I'd be clicking over to someone's page who is so deep in such hurt and despair.

    But God did.

    Thank you for commenting on my blog so I could find your page and now be praying for you. I'm praying that this season ends soon and that this relationship is restored, even more than it was before.

  5. You sound like you are going through a really hard time. I wish you well and hope that the little bit of space for your daughter helps her to find her place in the family. It is lucky that she is with someone you trust and not just living rough. At least you know she is safe for now. I really hope for you that things go well.