Monday, August 31, 2009


Today DD2 starts her first day of school and I don't know what she took, if she did, for lunch. I don't know that she ate breakfast, who her teachers are, what classes she has or what she wore. I don't know what time she catches the bus and I won't know how her first day went.

I didn't sleep well last night and that makes this a very emotional day.

She has been gone almost two weeks now. Two weeks without my girl who, right now, feels like a stranger to me.


  1. Perhaps, even though this is a very difficult time, you can take solace in the fact that at least she is going to school and is safe and sound? I'm sure that doesn't help, but its a little sliver of the silver lining.

  2. It is a silver lining, Beth, and sometimes I do lose sight of the that silver lining. Grief sort of takes over, you know? I get selfish and focused on how I am feeling and how it is affecting our family (namely my two youngest)